x sampai sehari ak wat blog da ade 4 entry. rajen kan ak? haha. awal awal memang la camni, nnt da lame nnt seminggu sekali pon ssh ak na post entry baru. ;)
guys, kat sini ak na tunjukkan note yang paling ak suka, ak wat sendiri note ni time ak tgh frust menonggeng dlu. mst korang x caye kan ak wat note ni, ak tls full english. haha. nah, ak na share bg korang tgk n rase cam mane yang ak rase mase ak tulis note nie. enjoy ;)
lady, it's over
Every single day
I open your profile
Doing nothing except looking at your cute face for a couple of minutes
Yeah, maybe it sound stupid
But that was the only thing that bring me meaning to my miserable life
28/10/2010, around 9 pm
Yesterday, I opened your profile
Before the pointer reaching your picture
I noticed something
Something that changed my life drastically
Your status
Marrying someone!?
Angry, enrage, sad, disappointed, despair
It all mixed up
I feel there is nothing left for me in this world
Panic,
I sat down,
Spend about 30 minutes
Mumbling, crying, and looking at the wall to calm down
30 minutes maybe sound pretty fast
But every second from it was very excruciating
I realized
I am nothing compared to him
When you cried and hurt
He comfort you with his voice
When you felt alone
He’s there, calling you from thousand miles away
When you want to share something, anything
He’s willingly accepted it
But me?
I never knew you were crying
I never knew you were lonely
I never knew you want someone to talk
It’s not like I don’t give a damn about you
It’s because I never let myself going into your life
Scared of disappointment
Scared of rejection
Scared of losing you
I am not worthy for someone like you.
Some peoples may said
“You wasting your time for her”
“Like hell she care about your loved for her”
“Seriously la asyraf, your love for her is nothing more than rubbish”
Yeah
My love for her may be rubbish
But
This rubbish that makes me feels good
This rubbish that makes me stronger
This rubbish that give me courage to face everything
This rubbish is a symbol of my love for you
This very rubbish is the only thing that keeps me alive
I got nothing left
None
But the smiles and faces of every single one of my friends
Makes me realized
Life is more than a love
Yeah
Maybe I should stop chasing you around
Maybe I should stop forcing you to like me
Maybe I should stop forcing you to love me
There is something in me said
“just leave her”
“just forget her”
“go meet someone else”
But I can’t just denied my true desired
I love her
And that it
Even I can’t see her anymore like I always do
Love, hear me
This is my vow
This is my oath
"I WILL NEVER STOP LOVING YOU"
asyraf
29/10/2010, 6.48 pm
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